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imagine a world without gender
a world where we are not confined
to the arbitrary interpretations of
an inexact biology. imagine we could
rise above the places
below our waists, reside instead in
graceful hands, in angled cheekbones
in some deeper conception than this
skewed perception of you.

I strip myself bare of unforgiving flesh,
squinting behind dim caverns of girl parts--
what are girl parts? all we have are beating

I sit inside this trembling body, shoulder
to hunched shoulder,
stacks of bones too unsure
to be brave enough to tell you that
my gender will never fit on the plastic sign
above a bathroom door.

and I've never filled out a single
form where they didn't ask me for
me to choose one or the other,
sister or brother, father or
mother, i want to tell you but
I'm slipping between sidewalk cracks

walking down the street hearing wolf whistles and
I want to tell you please don't read between
the lines, erase the goddamn
lines, this has nothing to do with

and I want to tell you how
when I grow up, I want to be an astronaut,
because in space breasts do not matter
in space pink and blue don't matter, space suits
are white. but here alone, between the bathroom
doors I need to make a choice.
I want to tell you but instead I will
hide here a little longer,
paint my shoulder blades pink,
let my heart beat
girl into my veins,
even though I don't believe
it, even though I want to tell you.
but i don't want you to know.
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Given 2012-12-22
i want to tell you by ~Aquarius-Claire is an emotionally driven spoken word piece that leaves a taste of the writer's frustration in the mouth when read aloud and puts a sensitive subject to many into perspective. ( Featured by Nichrysalis )
skogsanda Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
YES!!! break the socially constructed boundaries of stupidity!!! (= classification by sex/gender)
Nagneto Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Personally I find this concept frightening, as we would trade individuality for unity. The only thing one can really can their own is their own body, and that alone transcends gender barriers. It's enough for me.
Aquarius-Claire Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2013  Student Writer
I'm not really sure what you mean by this. What concept do you find frightening?
Nagneto Featured By Owner May 31, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
The idea of everyone being the same. It's maddening.

Good poem though.
linxinpei Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2012  Student Writer
The sense of defeat at the end. I love this beautiful poem - it's so accessible! Some parts of the poem (personally), I find, stumble a bit. Your beginning is strong, starting with an imperative, 'imagine'. In the course of the line I find 'arbitrary interpretations' a bit too direct. 'interpretation' in itself does suggest some uncertainty, and by adding 'arbitrary'... Perhaps it is that sense of bitterness you want to convey here on behalf of the speaker, in which case, it works. But in comparison to the lovely wordplay on an 'inexact biology', I can't help but feel that you're striking a bit too strong in 'arbitrary interpretation'. Perhaps 'we are not confined/ to a certain determination of' would be better? then there's a homophone on 'a certain'/ 'ascertain', and wordplay on 'determination': fate choosing one's sex, as well as biological judgement of sex. That's just me though :/

The ending of the second stanza - 'what girl parts? all we have are beating/ hearts', it felt like you're coming on a little too strong in terms of melodrama. Forgive me for saying this, but this phrase feels quite unsubtle and threatens to drag the beautiful poem down in maudlin sentimentality. Taste is subjecive, though, so perhaps I'm being nitpicky.

I liked how you formatted the poem, particularly the break between the fourth and fifth stanza - lovely! Splendid use of breaks to convey that sense of things breaking off, where the poem '(slips) between sidewalk cracks'.

All in all I love this poem and I wish to congratulate you on your well-deserved dd. I apologise if I come off as too strong or too blunt and offend you in any way. I'm off to check out more of your poems :) Good day to you!
Fuko666 Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2012
True. Beautiful. Sad.
KMJ716 Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2012  Hobbyist Filmographer
i like it
ItalyxGermanyLUV Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2012  Student Writer
This is...touching. I think I may share this with my LGBT lunch support group. I think they may enjoy it. <3
Gracienoo Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
*Nods head in approvel and hands over a huge box marked 'Box Containes: 50,000 kittens* Use them wisely
Aquarius-Claire Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2012  Student Writer
have traded them all away in poker. sry (referencing buffy if you don't know)
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